Have you ever had one of those moments when several aspects of your life all came together and you had an "aha!" moment?
We had one today...on my bed...while doing our History reading.
I help out with teaching Children's Church at our local International Church here in Tanzania. Our "theme" this month has been the subject of "hope" and it's being taught over the 5 weeks of April by using the Easter story.
I taught the first Sunday of the month and again this weekend and there is no doubt in my mind that the kids now know that "
Hope is believing that God will make something good out of something that is bad."
We see the characters in the Bible story lose hope when things are bad, find hope when things are going well...BUT, do they keep their hope when all looks to be lost? Do they truly BELIEVE that God will make something good out of something that is bad? Do you think any of them had that thought while they were standing on that hill and an earthquake was taking place all around them?
Do ANY of us then really have HOPE?
OR, is it convenient to say we hope in our Lord because things are going well for us....
I love seeing the threads of my children's life tapestry be woven before my eyes.
Today, we were reading "Carry On, Mr. Bowditch." It is a Newberry Medal winner from 1956. Do you think that is an old book? Do you think your children would like it, or find it boring? Let me tell you, mine love it and ask me everyday to "read one more chapter." Yet another example of a classic story that has adventure, history, and a character lesson...but, I digress!
Let me say this, we are only about 8 chapters in and yet today, we learned about HOPE. Little Nat Bowditch came from a poor family during the American Revolutionary War and to ease the pressure of one more mouth to feed, his father sells him into indentured service, for 9 years, to a chandlery (ie. a store that sells all things having to do with ships!) Nat is super bright, he loves math, and his teacher at the local schoolhouse thinks he could go to Harvard. Alas, he is sold at the age of 12 and so won't be free until he's 21, too late to attend Harvard. Throughout his experiences he is sad that he isn't free. Don't we all long to be free and make our own life choices; but, he has two very kind masters, he has more food and clothes than he had before and not only do they not work him hard and deny him an education, they further it. They give him access to all kinds of books, supplies, allow him to visit his family and take time to learn about surveying, astronomy, Latin, etc.
At the end of the chapter today he finds out that his masters are selling their business to a new man. He thinks that means he'll be free; but, the new man comes in to the shop and jokes with him that he values Nat and bought the chandlery "lock, stock, and bookkeeper." Poor Nat crumples up the letter he was writing to a man that had promised him admission to Harvard IF he applied before he was 18. He is now 17. He owes 4 more years to the new master. He is discouraged and has no hope.
As we finished the chapter and I started asking the kids what they thought, the idea of hope came up. When will he realize that the Lord is orchestrating his life, he is much better taken care of where he is (his father was a drunk and his mother and grandmother die early on in the book), he is getting a much better education than he would have had he stayed at home. Could he really have gone to Harvard if it wasn't for Mr. Ropes and Mr. Hodges taking him in and actually encouraging him to further his education?
We have a long way to go yet, more than 3/4th of the book actually; but, the kids really got it today that little Nat needs hope, he needs to TRUST God that His plan is bigger than our own, and even when things may look bad (but the kids pointed out that other than his "freedom", he actually has a much better life and future than he had before) that God will orchestrate it for His will and purpose. Can we have HOPE that He will take care of this? It's hard, I know, we all have this struggle, I'm sure of it.
What I am so thankful for is that they didn't just learn about HOPE at Church, they didn't just learn about HOPE at school, they didn't just read about HOPE in the Bible with me today. They were able to put all those examples together and have an "aha" moment that I think will stick with them.
Because I made the commitment, long ago, that I would be involved and be present in every thread that goes into weaving my children's life tapestry, I get to be there to have that conversation, to remind them of that point when something bad happens next time and they seem to lose HOPE and have feelings of despair and hopelessness. If I wasn't there to allow God to weave those themes together in their lives, who would do it? Who cares more about their lives and the outcome than God and Indy and I do? Honestly, no one.
At these lightbulb moments I usually quietly say "Thank You, God." Thank you God for trusting me with these three little lights, these three lives that you could have put in ANY family; but, even with my personal failings, my strengths and weaknesses, you put them here...with Indy and I. You called us to take that responsibility to weave those character threads so that when they are "old, they will not depart" from what they've been taught. You've given us sufficient grace, when we butt heads, when I think "I can't do this one more day", I remember, God has a plan, he put these children here for a reason. I WILL study and read and work with all my might to do the right thing with God's provision...not with my own. I cannot do this on my own, no one can, I would reason to say.
One last thought....One of my favorite quotes that I hear from fellow homeschoolers and moms...
"God doesn't call the equipped, He equips the called!"
Amen to that, and thank you Lord for touching our hearts to be active parents and not abdicate our responsibility to weave those threads. Thank you Lord!!!!!